what i'm thinking

"I went straight on tour after his death. I didn’t go to a psychiatrist, I didn’t go to a bereavement group, I did not properly grieve. I realised after 11 years that I had not properly dealt with this. The fact that I was really in love with this person yet he was such a narcissist that he did this crazy thing and he really did it. It’s not like you commit suicide and you get to watch your own funeral like the fantasy goes as you’re doing it. You commit suicide and we don’t even know what happens. We could be just dead." - Courtney Love

(Source: happy-blood, via prettyonthepinkside)